Don't leave..

Sad face. ;(

My BF is moving to California in a week, and I don't even want to think about it. Not only is she leaving, but her whole family is! Ive known Laura and her family since 6Th grade, when she first moved here from California. They became my second family, I only spent almost everyday at her house! The whole Belvedere experience is coming to an end. A few months ago they closed down their restaurant, so no more late night amazing Italian food. I remember when Laura used to work in the deli, making all the wonderful deserts. She always wore her hair on top of her head, in this twisty bun thing. I remember coming in to visit her, taking advantage of the bread and soda machine, those were the days! Who am I going to be crazy with? Laura used to dress up in these ridiculous outfits and dance around her room, we used to pretend she was this crazy girl going to the club.... little did we know that day would actually come. She does wear ridiculous outfits, and she does dance funny. haha We sue have had our ups and downs, but we always manage to get thru it, Laura just has this very crazy eccentric personality, she is hard headed and likes things to go her way... always. But that's why I love her, that's why we all love her. Some people find her a little hard to handle, but if you get to know her, deep down you will know that she has a big heart, family is everything to her, she is a hard worker, and if she really sets her mid to something she can get it done. Most might not see that, but she does have a lot of ambition and drive. She has given her parents quite the ride, but she would do anything for them. She also is the best Aunt to the cutest nieces and nephew. Some of the best times were playing with those kids. Recently her older sister Angela and her family moved to Oregon, again more Belvedere's I have to miss. Me and Laura were the worst, I think we tried to get Lily and Ava to say and do anything, there mom wanted to kill us. Now her sister Antoinette has a one year old, I'm going to miss her like she is my own. Since day one me and Laura have tried to take her every chance we get, and just like her other nieces Laura loves to put her in ridiculous outfits, and lets her eat candy when she shouldn't, lets just say she will most likely be the aunt that buys them the worst toys, lets them learn the words to the worst songs( Ava was singing apple bottom jeans at age 3) and lets them do whatever they want. But its all out of love.

What am I going to do without her. All those late nights at the Belvedere house, watching all the TV shows and music videos she tivo'd. Eating ice cream and cereal out of cups, for some reason that's how she always ate those things. Ohh and the frozen burritos. I hate to admit this, but I will miss the "noise maker". I hated that dang thing! Those stupid things that play the storm sounds, rain, thunder, the works. Laura has to have it on to sleep. The one time she slept at my house and didn't have it she wanted me to make "swish" sounds so she could fall asleep!! There are so many great memories, I could go n forever! She has been there for me in so many ways, I feel like I'm losing my other half.

Even tho things have changed, and our lives are busy, I know we will always have each other. I hope California brings her and her family good things, I hope she can find herself and be herself and just be happy. I love my LB and will miss her soo.. Cali trip coming soon!!! ♥

Biebs.

Yes, Ive caught the Bieber fever. I want to put this little nugget in my pocket.

Hand to mouth.

Harper is in love with her tiny little hands, she puts them in her mouth any chance she gets! I think she is just amazed at the fact that she can get them up there, and that she has them! She now can grab things in close range, mostly just by feeling something close or if you put it in her hand. She definitely knows what her Binky is and tries to put it in her mouth herself! Its so cute watching her do this, and being so curious! I recently got her some new toys, some rings that link together to hang on her car seat, this way they are long enough for her to find with her hands. Also a new book, which I'm sure she will start to love, right now she just kind of stares at the pages when I read to her, eventually she will be able to interact(the book has different things you can touch and feel). I also got her the baby Einstein travel music, to play in the car when we go on our adventures, and also for our upcoming trip to Montana to see her extended family! She is getting soo big! Her 4 month check up is a few weeks away, I cant believe how fast they grow! I'm glad she is doing good, and growing. Glad we have one happy healthy baby!! ♥

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I have too much time on my hands...

Photo fun!

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All of us! ♥ The dog would be Elgin, He's not quite sure what he thinks of Harper, he smells her and licks her, so he must think she smells and tastes good!!

Space bound.

[Verse 1]
We touch, I feel a rush, we clutch, it isn’t much
But it’s enough to make me wonder what’s in store for us
It’s lust, it’s torturous, you must be a sorceress, cuz you just
Did the impossible; gained my trust, don’t play games it’ll be dangerous
If you fuck me over, cuz if I get burnt
Ima show you what it’s like to hurt
Cuz I been treated like dirt before ya
And love is evol, spell it backwards I’ll show ya (evil)
Nobody knows me, I’m cold, walk down this road all alone
It’s no one’s fault but my own. it’s the path I’ve chosen to go
Frozen as snow, I show no emotion whatsoever so
Don’t ask me why I have no love for these mo’fuckin’ hoes
Blood suckin’ succubuses, what the fuck is up with this
I’ve tried in this department but I ain’t have no luck with this
It sucks, but it’s exactly what I thought it would be like tryna start over
I got a hole in my heart, some kind of emotional roller coaster
Something I won’t go till you toy with my emotions so it’s over
It’s like an explosion, everytime I hold ya I wasn’t joking when I told ya
You take my breath away, you’re a supernova, and Imma…
[Chorus]
I’m a space bound rocketship and your hearts the moon
And I’m aiming right at you, right at you
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I’m aiming right at you, right at you, right at you
[Verse 2]
I’ll do whatever it takes, when I’m with you I get the shakes
My body aches, when I ain’t with you I have zero strength
There’s no limit on how far I would go, no boundaries, no lengths
Why do we say that until we get that person that we thinks
Gonna be that one, then once we get them it’s never the same
You want them when they don’t want you, Soon as they do feelings change
It’s not a contest and I ain’t on no conquest for no mate
lyrics courtesy of www.killerhiphop.com
I wasn’t looking when I stumbled on to you, musta been fate
But so much is at stake, what the fuck does it take?
Let’s cut to the chase, before the door shuts in your face
Promise me if I cave in and break
And leave myself open that I won’t be makin’ a mistake
Cuz Imma…
[Chorus]
[Verse 3]
So after a year and six months, it’s no longer me that you want
But I love you so much it hurts, never mistreated you once
I poured my heart out to you, let down my guard, swear to God
I blow my brains in your lap, lay here and die in your arms
Drop to my knees and I’m bleedin, I’m tryna stop you from leavin’
You won’t even listen so fuck it, I’m tryna stop you from breathin’
I put both hands on your throat, I sit on top of you squeazin’
Til I snap your neck like a popsicle stick, ain’t no possible reason
I can think of to let you walk up out this house and let you live
Tears stream down both of my cheeks now I let you go and just give
And before I put that gun to my temple I told you this… (Gunshot)

And I woulda did anything for you
To show you how much I adored you
But it’s over now, it’s too late to save our love
Just promise me you’ll think of me everytime you look up in the sky and see a star cuz Imma…

[Chorus 2]
I’m a space bound rocketship and your hearts the moon
And I’m aiming right at you, right at you
250 thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I’m so lost without you, without you, without you
[End]


So my song right now..

Time on my hands.

In my few spare hours of time today.... ohh lets say 5. I came across Google font directory. I believe you have to have Google Chrome installed to use this, but its simple. Once there it gives you a few different fonts and the code to use the fonts on your blog!! I love it, and used one for my blog title... I'm not sure if anyone can see it, because it might be that you have to have it to view it. Anyways, its cute when I look at it!! After a few tries I finally got it to work! Go check it out! ;)

3 Month update!

Really? Has it been this long?!
3 months ago today, I was frantically pacing trying to find my lost cell phone, crying and stressing that I wouldnt be able to call anyone and let them know I was having my precious little girl the next day. Little did I know, that would soon be the least of my worries.
Time goes by so fast, but I'm so grateful that Ive had the opportunity to spend every single day with her. To wake up next to her, play with her, talk to her, take her everywhere with me. The list goes on. You really don't know how much you can love until you have a child. I never really understood when people would say that or tell me, but its like you are connected at the heart. I love watching her grow, but I already want her to stay little forever! Things are going good, she is growing and learning. She has realized that she has hands and tries to fit them both in her mouth. She drools constantly, holds her head up, and is so aware of everything. She definitely recognizes my face and voice, its amazing how they just know the "mothers touch" (I think Mike is jealous) haha. He has been back a week now, and she is getting used to his face and voice, its great that they get to spend time together, I'm sure she will be a Daddy's girl. He actually changed a diaper yesterday... to bad it wasn't number 2. Tomorrow will be the first time I leave her overnight and a couple hours away.. she will be with Auntie and Grandma, but my nerves are setting in... I miss her just being gone for a few hours! Also, Harper celebrated her first 4Th of July... unfortunately we didn't watch any fireworks, but we did get to spend time with the family and dress up!

Kenzi,Me,Harper all dressed up!

Little Harpeloo in her 4Th of July dress.

Home.

Michael moved back!!
He got a job here, so him and all they guys he went to Cali with came back to work here, with just as much opportunity and they can be with their family's! Its nice to have the extra hands, to have his help, and his company! We also have another addition, he brought his dog Elgin with him!! He's the sweetest dog, and definitely makes me feel safe when Mike is gone. Now that Michael has moved in, its definitely taking some getting used to.. I now have more laundry to do, another mouth to feed, and more stuff in my little apartment! But on the plus side, I do have a big screen T.V. haha
All jokes aside, I'm glad he's back, glad he gets to spend everyday with his daughter and can start building a relationship with her, and she can start recognizing his face! She is definitely a mommas girl, and can get fussy when anyone else is holding her, especially if she is in not the best mood. I'm sure within the next few weeks he will have the touch, maybe he will start changing more diapers. :)

Quote.

"People come in and out of our lives and some manage to stay longer than we would like. They linger in our hearts & visit us in our dreams. "