Swap photos.

SWAP MANIA!!

Custom made leg warmers!! I actually did not swap for these, I purchased them through a swap mamas etsy shop.. she gave me a good deal, and made up a custom order from me! :)

My new with tag wallet, Fabric, and new with tag guess shirt for Harp. 

My Relic leather purse.. and vintage clutch! aahh i love them. 

 

Cloth wipes. How awesome are these?! 

 Custom made onesie. 

 Snack bag for Harper's snacks. 

I swapped some unopened diapers for the cloth wipes, i thought they were cute and thought i would try them out.. i had no idea she was going to add the additional items, which was a great surprise! I was soo thrilled at how great all the stuff was! Hand made items are the best! She really went above and beyond!
i have loved all my swaps.. and have dealt with some great mama's! I still have some swaps going, and hopefully i can post some more of Harper's cute outfits when i get them!!

Obsessed.

Music Therapy.

 The last few days she has jumped right into my heart.

Adele

I just love her, and this song. ♥

Also this one has been on repeat too. I need to get her CD asap.
yes, I still buy cd's. Im old school.

Enjoy.

Harper's Happenings.

If Harper could talk.. she would tell you..

-I no longer take a binky.. ive just decided its not my thing.
-I have mastered climbing onto the couch myself.. psh.
-I take a few steps here and there.. just taking my time on walking.
-I love pretzels, cheerios, crackers, and beef jerky.. keeps me quiet during car rides.
-I have my two bottom teeth, and my top  ones are almost all the way through! I look awesome. :)
-I ride in a "big girl" Car seat.. I now can enjoy the view, and make silly faces at mom and dad.
-Baby food is getting really old.. id rather have what everyone else is having.
-Mom hides all the good stuff in the cupoards.
-I Spend my mornings with Dad now.. we make messes, and take naps on the floor.
And.....

-I STARTED DAYCARE!!!

Yesterday was Harper's first day at daycare.. I must say the transition wasn't as hard as I thought, I didn't cry, but I did get a little sad knowing that she will be somewhere else without us. I found a in-home daycare about 10 min away from home, and work so I'm really close! Daycare is expensive, the going rate these days (for most licensed facility's) is 700+ a month!! Are you kidding me?! I'm sorry but I dont just have 700 extra dollars lying around each month! So we opted for a home daycare, which saves us a bunch. I really love the lady who runs it, she is very sweet.. although i found myself being very "nit-picky" as Michael would say.. but I'm a mom! I'm leaving my baby with a stranger, and strange kids.. I have every right to be picky. He thought I was insane for packing her own changing pad.. it folds to the size of a diaper, I could have told him to take her whole changing table.  I have no idea what goes on after she is dropped off, all you can hope for is that they follow regulations, are sanitary, and take care of your child as you would. Luckily, Harper only spends 2-3 hours in daycare for now, so she doesn't have much time to forget me! haha I wish she could stay with family, but like us.. everyone works odd schedules. I'm on the fence about working and being a stay at home mommy.. I kind of miss being home with her all day. :)  Its only day two, so I'm sure it can only get better.
In other news..
Harper is turning 1 in a few weeks.. and I'm going crazy!! I want to have the perfect party for her, have the best decorations, cake, outfit, party hat, etc. Michael thinks I am doing too much.. but that's coming from someone who would like to just skip his birthday all together, he might even try and skip Christmas this year. He really has no idea what he's got himself into! cue my evil laugh... muahahahaha.
I'm so excited I could pee! Her theme is owls.. if you haven't seen any  of the cute owl decor/party ideas/clothing/toys/fabric/paper/etc. You are missing out! Just check out My owl barn. I died. I'm seriously obsessed. I might just have to re-do her room, i might even put some around the house! ahh. Ive already ordered her custom made outfit, with owl applique  of course. From etsy and also going to order her party supplys from there as well. My next project is finding enough apothecary like jars or vases for her candy bar! The list goes on.. i even started to attempt a hand made owl shaped invitation this morning.

Id like to say my obsession/craziness is only borderline.

Mommy mode.. full force.

The zoo!!

We took Harper to the zoo for the first time yesterday, although I was probably more excited then her and her dad combine. haha The summer hours at the zoo just started this week, so because of some remodeling and the weather still being a little cold we didn't get to see very many animals.. my favorite, the elephants, were inside!! boo. OK enough about me at the zoo.. I'm just going to post some pictures that I got. 

On the way to the zoo.. eating beef jerky! She cried when it was gone, so we had to stop and buy more. Spoiled much? haha

Our little monkey!Trying to get her to stand up to the monkey measurements..

Just Because.

Cant believe I never shared this picture.. one of my favorites. Adorable.

Full time everything.

Are you bored with my craft/thrifty/mommy nonsense?
Well its no secret that deep down I'm always going through something. Exhaustion and stress like to rule my life.. they are the worst friends to have. But they make up a big part of life right? I feel like a zombie lately, I probably look like one too, and soon I'm going to have that dragging foot walk down  because I'm pretty sure my knee is giving up on me. seriously. Thank you mom&dad for that gene.
Anyways.. my pain goes deeper than that lately. My heart is heavy, and my mind is blank. Before this I felt like a ticking time bomb. I exploded. Maybe I have too much emotion in me.. is that even possible? Isn't it good to show emotion, to have feelings.. even though those feelings get hurt, were human right? I'm not weak, I feel I'm a strong independent woman when the time calls for it. Why is it tho that in my current relationship I feel helpless.. hopeless... drained. I know I'm not a perfect person, I have flaws, I have things about myself I want to change, wish I could change.. and I'm striving to be a better person. At the same time, I'm ME. I shouldn't have to change who I am, and I certainly shouldn't feel like I'm not good at all.
Trust me when I say that I know relationships are not always rainbows and butterfly's.. I know couples have disagreements and arguments, will annoy each other, hurt each others feelings and get mad.  But where does that lead to having no respect or boundaries at all! Its like were going in the wrong direction, and doing nothing to find our way home.. were just hoping we will end up there eventually.
Am I perfect? no. Do I say and do things in the heat of the moment that I'm not proud of? yes. What kind of person am I if I cant even keep my composure for the sake of my daughter?  I want her to know whats to be tolerated and whats not. If I cant even make that decision for myself, how am I going to teach her? How is she going to know how to stick up for herself, respect herself and respect others If I cant. I cant protect her from everything, or from everyone that's ever going to hurt her. But id like her to think that I can.

Thrifty Find.

Yesterday, because I was in the area.. I decided to stop in the local D.I thrift store and see what I could find!

I found these gorgeous ceramic plates.. that I plan on displaying.. not eating off of!

and all these cute simple ceramic coffee cups, because I have a weird annoyance with drinking out of my Christmas ones, because its NOT Christmas.

and the large glass votive.. I plan on making a candy bar for Harpers bday.. so I need more of these, because how cute is this:

Different sizes, filled with colorful sweets! Im in love.

All of the above I puchased for $8.00 and you would never know! what a steal.