Rehab for your heart part 2.

Another lunch break, some retail therapy.. and my ohh so therapeutic music, my now current song.









I don't mind it I don't mind at all
It's like you're the swing set and I'm the kid that falls
It's like the way we fight, the times I've cried, we come to blows
And every night the passion's there so it's gotta be right, right?




No I don't believe you
When you say don't come around here no more
I won't remind you
You said we wouldn't be apart
No, I don't believe you
When you say you don't need me anymore
So don't pretend
To not love me at all




I don't mind it
I still don't mind at all
It's like one of those bad dreams when you can't wake up
Looks like you've given up, you've had enough
But I want more, no I won't stop, cause I just know you'll come around... right?



Just don't stand there and watch me fall
Cause I, 'cause I still don't mind at all




It's like the way we fight, the times I cry, we come to blows
And every night the passion's there so it's gotta be right, right?



I don't believe you .

Please flush.

Is there no such thing as bathroom etiquette?

When I go to the bathroom I go to do one of two things.. or fix my hair. I don't go to the bathroom in hopes of making new friends, receiving a compliment, or having some full blown conversation with a stranger about how their day sucks.

Every day me or one of the girls from work goes to the bathroom and without fail some random woman tries to spark up some conversation. "I love that shirt" "Wow what a day today huh?" "Ahh I have the worst headache today!" "Where did you get that necklace?" All these are said during washing my hands, fresh out of the stall... or the "Love the shoes" while awkwardly taking a pee. I cant ever respond in a non- awkward, weird look on my face sort of way! I just half smile or nod, or say my "I know, huh!" line.

Most of these people don't even work in close range so why they think we automatically have things in common boggles my mind!

On another note. Why would you want to have a convo on the phone with someone in the bathroom? I mean there are times I'm sitting there trying to do business and someone is sitting on the counter jabbing away! First off I don't think everyone wants to hear about how you cheated on your boyfriend!

Last.. but surely not least.. if you cant hold back the "reactions" of how your "feeling" Could you just wait til you get to the privacy of your own home! I'm not talking about the uncontrolled actions, that sometimes cause us an embarrassing moment.. but "voicing" them is a little uncomfortable for everyone, because we really don't know whats really going on in there!

Its a different story when your in high school, at a club, and going as a group... that's kind of the reason, but when I'm in a public restroom minding my own business.. it gets a little weird!

Maybe if they had a hang out lounge, like the mother's lounge, a vending machine and a TV it would be somewhat normal and cool.. hmm I'm going to think intensely on that thought for a while, could be the next big thing for public restrooms!

Breath in, Breath out.

“Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.”-Grey's Anatomy

Ive come to a point of no return. Things happen, pain happens, and no matter how hard you try to hold on to that little ounce of happiness, sometimes you just have to let go. Its been a rough couple of months, and a rough last week or so... but reality is this too shall pass. Sometimes relationships have that way of planting that evil seed inside of us, rooted and wont let up. It makes us think that things will always be this way, things wont get better, and things will never be as good as this, or ill never find someone who will make me this happy. Truth is we have probably said this at least once or twice, maybe even three or more times in our life.

I know that waking up everyday and feeling bad isn't going to make things better, so if i have to put on a fake smile and purposely make myself busy to keep my mind off things I will!

"Love is tough, too powerful for words, never starts and never ends, never enough and never not enough, you CANT give up on love it never goes away, sometimes love is too strong for words only through expression, everyone deserves love no one doesn't, love comes from god and if ignored you can suffer far more than you can possibly imagine, never just starts... and of coarse it can never end" :)

My friend wrote this to me a long time ago, It was his response to a post I wrote. I always go back and read it when I need a little boost. I don't think he will ever realize how many times I actually go back and read it, but its soo true. So thanks. ;)

Working...

My View from my office window.. Wish I could be outside enjoying the sunshine!

I Had to take a little break and get some fresh air...

We plan on picking these flowers when the day is over... I love that summer is on its way!

Thinking...

I'm not heartbroken ... But do you really want to admit that to yourself? I have a feeling that this blog is going to be an emotional bloggercoster.. if that makes sense! haha. My head fills up with all these thoughts, and I feel the need to share them here, then maybe once I get it out, I can get over it in a sense.

Lately.. I just want to stay in bed...Its amazing how one day you can wake up and things are just not the way they used to be, I like to think that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes I cant find a reason. Maybe I'm just too much of a forgiving person, maybe I give too many chances, maybe I need to be a little more heartless. Its just crazy to me how people can just throw things away like they never meant anything.. maybe its karma. I guess Ive been the heart breaker at one point, but no one ever deserves it.

I'm standing here with my suitcase of memories, on a dirt road, waiting for someone to pick me up. I'm lost.

Two blogs in one day... only because I set up mobile blogger.. And blogging on my sidekick is sweet. :-)

Rehab for your heart.

So I went to cash my check on my break today, and was feeling a little froggy so I picked up the Rascal Flatts CD. Ahh sooo good! I just knew there would be a song just for the way I'm feeling! Its called forever. (Ive included the song lyrics)

I miss you so much
your light, your smile, your way
and everything about us
but your gone your still here
in my heart and my tears

Yeah you sure left your mark
we were just gettin started

It wasn't long enough
it wasn't long enough together
but it was long enough
yeah it was long enough
to last forever

sometimes i get so mad
i scream, i swear at this
cause this isn't how we planned it
i sit here in a cold room
prayin',waitin' on you

to run back though that door
to the way it was before you left

it wasn't long enough
it wasn't long enough together
but it was long enough
yeah, it was long enough to last forever

I've been cheated, defeated cant believe that your gone

it wasn't long
it wasn't long enough
it wasn't long enough
it wasn't long enough

no no no

it wasn't long enough
it wasn't long enough together
but it was long enough
yeah it was long enough
to last to last to last forever

no, it wasn't long enough


This song will be on repeat for a while.. Ahh thank you Rascal Flatts.. you get me, straight to the heart! ;)