Just breathe.

"They say follow your heart but sometimes your heart leads you in the wrong direction. To places where you could get hurt." -My friend Kadie

Relationships... ohhh relationships. Just the opposite sex in general is a bit ugh at times. Sometimes we feel as if we never win, I hear a lot of when is it my turn? I hate that, I hate that we ever have to feel that way. Sometimes you feel as if you put your whole heart and soul into it, only to get crushed. Sometimes for no reason other than the selfishness of someone else. Maybe its true tho, that you have to have a few bad ones, to get to the good one, and really appreciate it. But even the good is hard to keep good 24/7. Love is hard, not only is love wonderful and feel good, and butterfly's in your stomach feeling. Its also, painful, hard, annoying, etc. Love is like your housework, let it go for a few days, the crap just keeps piling up, puts you in a bad mood. Clean it up, decorate a little, light a good smelling candle, and already you feel better! haha my point is, you got to always work at it, discuss things, try new things, avoid the "clutter". I'm no expert in this area, Ive had my heartbroken just like anyone else, and Ive had those hard to get over relationships, the ones that scar us for life, make us crazy, different, insecure, jealous, have trust issues, or just more angry in general. Its hard to go from a somewhat unstable relationship, to a more stable one. Getting out of your comfort zone, or lets say "different scenery" can be hard to adjust too.
I think women are just programmed to be nurturing, understanding, forgiving, selfless, and generous. This sometimes backfires for us and we get walked all over, and are expected of these things with nothing in return, we go above and beyond to prove how important someone is to us, just hoping that we will get a small acknowledgment in return. We do this mostly when we are not getting the appreciation we wish to receive. I know how hard it is to turn and walk away the minute those red flags pop up warning you that this is the way it will always be. We like to try and be the exception, sometimes it works out that way for some, for most its a vicious cycle that will continue until someone decides to end it. I do believe there is someone out there for everyone, even when you think you have met "the one" and it doesn't work out, doesn't mean there isn't someone even Better. You have to come to realize that the list you made of a perfect mate, with 20 things your looking for to check off, well will most likely never happen. If it does, or has congrats! Truth is you cant mix all the ingredients together, and make the perfect man.
There are far more better things to look for in a man and worry about besides the size of his penis! SORRY had to say it. haha But honestly, if that is the ONLY and FIRST thing you let determine your relationship with a potentially good man, you will always be looking. If you let his bad breath be the deal breaker, your always going to find something wrong with someone, eventually you will be able to have the courage to tell him, hey you need a freaking breath mint, ASAP, or we wont be kissing EVER again. Pretty sure he will be doing something about it. Funny how in some cases woman really do let these petty little things determine the outcome, I'm sure we have all been guilty of this, its easy to do when you don't have "feelings" or feel some sort of connection, sometimes there are just too many things we might not be able to work around. All I'm saying is if we had this attitude the minute some lousy dude we are dating calls us fat, or insults us, or calls us names or treats us like a piece of trash, we should stand up and say, I cant stand your annoying nail biting habit, but Ive learned to deal with it, but I wont deal with the way you treat me. (easier said than done). That's the downfall to love, not that love is always a downer, but love does have such a powerful effect on us, that I think it does tend to cloud our judgement. Sometimes the pain is so awful it feels like we will never get over it, we stay in bed, cry, starve, play sad songs, watch romantic movies, cry some more... jeez females really put on a show! haha We have big hearts, we have big emotions, we all just want to be loved, and deserve love.

When my days are hard, when the fights go on, when we cant agree on anything, when I want to throw my hands up and give up... I realize that at the end of the day I have someone who never fails to tell me how much he loves me, how pretty I am(even when I'm a mess) takes care of me, loves his daughter, makes sure we are taken care of, works hard, and puts his girls above the rest. When he annoys the hell out of me, spends too much time playing video games and watching sports, when his feet stink.. and he purposely doesn't do anything about it.. I just breath (as much as I can) and count my blessings. :) People can have opinions, assume things, judge, laugh, compare themselves, but truth is no one matters besides YOU.
You and your happiness.